Day 38

10:00 AM

Outside temperature is above 0 degrees. It has been months since the last time the temperature went over freezzing point. As I have said before, winter is the perfect time for the spirit. Constantly gray clouds, cold, windy, every day the same. Really challenges you to rise above the outside condition and feel as is you were on Fiji Islands... Every day we wake up, we face the test; are we going to rise above and live on Fiji Islands, or we are staying down, letting the outside conditions dictate our inner world. In reality, there is no difference betweenn living on the sunny island or living on top of snowy mountain. You inside world is the same... Always be above your small self, your ego, mind... Realize the fact that they are not real you, don't identify with them and don't let them control you. Be present at all times, constantly connected with the moment that you are in. When an old emotion comes up, pay attention to it, observe it and see where it leads. Embrace the old emotion, and use it to learn and grow. Don't give you Ego the satisfaction of acting upon the emotion, thus making your Ego even stronger and your real self less present. You can never get rid of your mind, or your Ego, but you can step aside and observe them. See their patterns, feel the emotion they cause in you, feel the old emotions and where are they dragging you. Observe, observe, observe... Be fully present, be a master... Fiji Islands...

2:00 PM

Amazing... I talked about it yesterday. The importance of getting to class in time, grounding and focusing. Unwinding a little bit before the class, leaving it all outside the room. Knowing all that, armed with focus and determination, I walked into the studio at 9:25... Five minutes before the class, rushing again... Just amazing...
Solid class... 38th in a row... Hey I am almost half way...

11:00 PM

Attachment... We are all attached to something. People, things, places, feelings, always attached. We need it, it is ours, and when we loose it, we suffer. Actually, first we suffer until we get what we want, then once we have it, we suffer in fear of loosing it. It never ends...
Attachment is the source of, more or less, all suffering... It is deeply connected with our Ego, and our false "I". It begins with the " Me, Mine" attitude. It is my car, my phone, my house, my friend... Mine... If I loose my phone I will feel bad and suffer. For an hour, 10 hours, 10 days, I will suffer... Now if another person has the same phone, and looses it, am I going to suffer...? Of course not. It is still the same phone, the same loosing situation, but the difference is the "Mine" part. We are attached to it, we feel like its part of us, so when we loose it its like loosing a part of us. Is it a life changing thing...? Are we going to die without it...? No, of course not, it is just a phone... However, it is "Mine"...
We do the same thing with people. We attach ourselves to our partners, friends, parents... We feel like we need them. How many times have you heard:" I can't imagine living without her/him..." Attachment... If you need someone, then you don't really love them. You think you do, but that's your Ego, your false "I" being attached to the person. When you truly love someone, you just love them. You don't need them. You are perfectly fine by yourself, but you love them with all your heart. The fact that they are in your life, or not, does not matter... You just love... Seing them every day, or once a year, makes no difference, you still love them with all your being. They don't need to be there for you all the time, close to you, on your side. You don't need them... Love them...