Day 19

10:00 AM

The fatigue is gone... I feel refreshed when I wake up, and I feel energized throughout the day. Despite the neck problems I had the past two days, my energy levels are high, and I don't feel exhausted after the class. My practice is strong and disciplined, from the beginning to the end. Focus is fully present, and I don't have those energy meltdowns like I had a few days ago. Even the hurricane is blowing with less force....
What changed...? Did I get in better yoga shape the last two days...? Did my body rest and recover better last two days...? How come all of the sudden its all gone...?
The answer is very simple. It was never there... I was never tired, exhausted, my energy levels were never depleted. I was fine the whole time, just like I am fine today.... It is all in the head. Being tired is a state of mind, not so much your body state. My mind was tired from going to yoga, tired from doing the same postures all the time.  As a result, it created the fatigue, the exhaustion, the energy meltdown... That's how powerful the mind is, it can create anything in our heads. Anything in order to survive, and to remain in control...
The only real thing the past two days was that pain in my neck. The intensity of it was also the mind, but the pain was real. Now, the only real thing that was happening to me, affected my practice here and there. Nothing significant. On the other hand, all those mind creations that seemed so real, were all over me. Before, during and after class... The storm was in full swing. However, the hurricane itself can only blow until one realizes that the wind is not real. As soon as you turn on the light, and see the real nature of the hurricane, the crushing wind becomes a breeze...
That's all we have to do, just keep the lights on. Always try to see the real nature of things, not the nature that your mind wants you to see. All it takes is a mind switch. Then some day we will be able to see life... Real life.... The sky is blue, the grass is green... That life....

2:00 PM

As soon as I open my mouth I am wrong... Whatever I talk about, I talk about from my own perspective... My opinion.... Me... Mine.... False....

11:00 PM

Day 19 finished.... Night....