Day 54

10:00 AM

Are you sure...? A question we should always ask ourselves, and we never do. We perceive things all the time, and we trust our perceptions fully. Then we react one way or the other... However, we never really stop for a second, look deep inside, and ask ourselves:"Am I sure about that.." Is this the actual truth, is this person really like that...? What is really going on...? We never look into it. We just look at the situation, people, events, make our perception about it and go from there. Most of the time our perception is totally wrong, and by the time we realize that, it is already too late. Then we feel bad about it...
Now, do we learn from it and make sure it doesn't happen again...? Of course not, we do the exact same thing over and over again. Constantly make wrong assumptions about people, see hidden agendas in people, misjudge the situations... Every day same story. It is rooted so deep inside of us, we don't even notice that we make these perceptions. On top of all, we don't think we are wrong, we actually think we know what we're doing. Hey, we know... Usually it is all followed by that famous line:" I know exactly what he/she wants to do... You can't fool me..." Can't fool you... Really...? You have been fooled from the very beginning...

2:00 PM

Understand...? Do you understand...? A person, your friend, lover, boss, total stranger. Do you...? Look within, and try to feel an answer to this question. Don't think it, feel it. You have to try to feel it, and most of all you have to try to understand. I mean, you don't have to understand, you can just have a life without love. Because that is what you get if you don't understand, or at least try to understand. Understanding and love are the exact same thing. If you don't understand you can't love. You think that you love her, but if you don't understand him, you are only fooling yourself and everyone around you. Feel the person, experience her/him, connect with the other. Stay quiet, listen and connect. Contemplate on the life of the person that is standing in front of you; the hard times, the suffering he/she had in her life. Realize that no matter how bad they can be, all they are doing is trying to be happy in their own way. Throw away you ego, your pride and macho attitude, and open your heart. Let the the others in, embrace them with open arms. And listen... Understand... Love...

11:00 PM

54th class, in the past... Never happened. If feel and I feel... The day was just it, a day... After 54 classes I feel exactly like after 54 classes. Throw it all out. Empty you cup... Come back to the empty sheet in your head. Get that beginners mind...